SORRY MY LOVES. i've been so busy.

summer is almost here. TG!

HERE YOU GO:

It's those things you hate about
yourself that someday,
someone will love about you

The people who suffer the most are those who

don’t know what they want.

-Grey’s Anatomy

she's a summer girl. she likes things simple
& hates drama. she wishes that she could wear
 flip-flops year round & hates being cold. she's
moody during the winter because things are usually
falling apart. but then summer comes; it always
does. and she realizes that she has true friends, &
that nothing can beat those summer days & nights
that are spent with the waves crashing
& the sand between her toes.

All she wants, all she needs, is for someone to want her

Yes, they say that patience is a virtue, but how long should you wait before
realizing he doesn’t feel the same? When is long too long?

give me something to believe in
cause i don't believe in you anymore

I'm reaching back,
trying to touch the moment.
Each precious minute that you were mine.
How do you prepare,
when you love someone this way,
to let them go a little more each day?

Meredith: See now you can't do that!
Derek: Do what?
Meredith: Not look happy after sex. It's bad for the ego.
Meredith: I'm fine.
Meredith: Are we fine?
Derek: Sure
Meredith: Not so convincing. I shouldn't have accused you of
hovering. It wasn't nice, you were just trying to be there for me.
But now I'm being available, and communicating, and getting
naked, and doing all of you favorite things.
Derek: Good things.
Meredith: Then why are you still staring at the ceiling?
Derek: I don't, I just, that day, you came out of the water,
...trying to breathe for you. I love you, and I want you, but I don't
know what to...you didn't swim. You didn't swim and you know
how to. And I don't know if I can... I don't know if I wanna keep
trying to breathe for you.
Meredith: I should go. I'll go

When she smiled, Miles felt the same strange fluttering he`d experienced when he`d first met her. It struck him that he hadn`t fully appreciated how pretty she was the last time.
[ Nicholas Sparks ; A Bend in the Road ]

"we're not gonna make it," he explained how the end will come. you and me were never meant to be part of the future. all we have is now, all we've ever had was now"

I'm walking around and I can almost hear the sound of

everyone I've known and all the people I've seen get up and go.

There's nothing left to say when I look at friends and

see how they've changed.

Sometimes expectations sell us short. Sometimes the expected

simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. You got to wonder why

we cling to our expectations, because the expected is just what keeps us steady.

Standing. Still, the expected's just the beginning, 

the unexpected is what changes our lives.

-Grey’s Anatomy

If you could see all the possibilities
we might not still be standing where we started.

i'm on the edge of my seat, and i'm not going any further.
hands up you want me; hands down you don't.

I love you, and I probably always will.
But, we go days without having a meaningful conversation.
And, I used to miss you so much when that happened,
but it never seemed like you missed me,
and I guess because of it I stopped missing you

the true test of love is ; no matter how long you two go without talking, he'll always find a way back into your heart. no matter how hard you try to forget him, you can't. it's the little things that mean the most, but break your heart at the same time. it's those times when a song comes on the radio and immediately you cry..missing him, wanting him, needing him <3

No. Sometimes we’d be at the same place at

exactly the same time and I can almost hear her voice.

It’s like I’m touching her. I like to believe she knows I’m there. 

That’s all you get. That’s it. Moments with the people you love.

And they’ll move on and you’ll want them to move on. 

But still, Meredith, that’s all you get. Moments.

-Grey’s Anatomy

you demand to be chased for your love.
my desperate heart is far too weak to run for you this long.
but you don't care at all.
there's nothing i can do to draw you close to me.

you ended it with lets be friends.
you promised we would talk and hang out.
i said it wouldn't work. you persisted.
now you can't look me in the eye.
tell me, once again , are you living up to what you say?

Happiness is achieved;
not given.
You have to believe.

Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past,
stop planning the future,  stop figuring out precisely how we feel,
stop deciding exactly what we want,
and just see what happens.

i'm up all night and you know i'm right
i don't want to be the center of attention
for all of your late night conversations
i never saw you coming
and you know that's what you wanted
all your self-sufficiant, poor excuses
didn't back you up, and i figure:
what i've got isn't what you want
now i've tied my fingers tight with string
just to remind me not to think of you at night
i only fight with my consciousness and sub-concious thinking
that rationalize these useless thoughts that i am thinking
you paint me black with your fictious lack of self-esteem
"you're so sweet..." 

I am a firm believer in serendipity-
all the random pieces coming together in one wonderful moment,
when suddenly you see what their purpose was all along.
-Boy Meets Boy

I quit. I`m over you. I fell so hard.
I was always there when you
needed to talk to someone. Yeah
so basically I`m tired of being
just a friend or chasing you. So
if you want me, I`m here. But I`m
done wasting all my time on
someone who doesn`t care

Sometimes I think the only reason we fell for each other
was because it was convenient. <|3

Who knows what could've been

Meredith: Too often, the thing you want most is the one thing
you can't have. Desire leaves us heartbroken, it wears us out.
Desire can wreck your life. But as tough as wanting something can
be. The people who suffer the most, are those who don't know
what they want.

In High School, you realize who really matters to you. You find out that there are a lot of people who claim to be your friends, but only a few actually mean what they say. You learn that trust is hard to come by, and that forgiveness is a lot harder than forgetting. You learn that the girls will always be there for you and that the boys won't ever come close. You learn that sometimes you're better off just leaving school with a few good friends and going for rides to get away from all the chaos. You learn that if people really love you and care about you that they will be there for you through thick and thin, not just through Monday and Wednesday. You learn that after fights, the real people who care will stand next to you and never leave your side.

And there really isn’t anything to say.
What do you do when he doesn’t feel the same?
Just three words: You move on.

MEREDITH: [narrating] "Some people believe that without history, our lives amount to nothing. At some point we all have to choose: do we fall back on what we know, or do we step forward to something new? It's hard not to be haunted by our past. Our history is what shapes us... what guides us. Our history resurfaces time after time after time. So we have to remember sometimes the most important history is the history we’re making today."

So let me get this straight…
you were leading me on, using me,
keeping me waiting for something that wasn't there,
letting me get my hopes up, acting like you cared,
and allowed me to start liking you more
and more everyday
because you didn’t wanna hurt me?

And every once and awhile, we both turn and find each others eyes.

I feel a surge up my spine and my heart pounding.

So powerful, so loud, you must’ve felt the earth shake with me.

Haven't updated in a while.

MISSING ME-RJ HELTON. IS MY SONNGGGGG!

MEREDITH: "I'm a surgeon. I do the rescuing. You are not my knight in shining whatever."
DEREK: "So we're gonna fight because I pulled you out of the tub."
MEREDITH: "You have a place. You could sleep at it. And then you don't have to pull me out of the bathtub. You're everywhere, all the time, saying things."
DEREK: "This is the happy ever after part. And in the happily ever after, the guy is there all the time, saying things and the girls love it!"
MEREDITH: "Go to work, I'll see you there."
DEREK: "And just for the record? I am your knight in shining whatever."

^AWH that was a cuuute part!

MEREDITH: "The reason that I want you to have the surgery is because I have this hope, that in a year, two years or five, they're gonna have a breakthrough. They're gonna find a cure for Alzhiemer's, and you and I will have another chance. To get to know each other. You'll get a chance to know me, to see that I am not even remotely ordinary, so I wish you would have the surgery. But it's up to you Mom, it's your life."
ELLIS: "You remind me of my daughter."
RICHARD: "About an hour ago. One minute she was here, the next- I'm so sorry."
MEREDITH: "Me too."

that was saddddddd :(

Ah, anyone watch Grey's? that last episode was def. a tearjerker lol

IZZIE: "I'm both."
MIRANDA: "What?"
IZZIE: "I'm both. I'm a surgeon and I am a person who becomes emotionally involved. I will never again cross the line like I did with Denny. I have learned my lesson. But I'm still both, and I'm not going to give up either part of me. And I am not going to apologize for it." ++Grey's Anatomy

MEREDITH: "You're watching me sleep again?"
DEREK: "You're cute when you sleep. What can I say?"
MEREDITH: "But don't you sleep? Why are you always up before the alarm?"
DEREK: "Well, I'm a light sleeper. It's no big deal."
MEREDITH: "So something woke you up."
DEREK: "It's no big deal."++Grey's Anatomy

EDIT: So i lied haha, ill update soon though

this song is missing you-rj helton or something i dunno, its been in my posts before my loves!

short update:

I;m so tired lately ha, i'll add more tomorrow though I PROMISE. along with pictuuures.

CHRISTMAS BREAK :] gotta love itt!

I wrote this, what do you think,.......

sometimes i do silly things like bang into walls,
 or have some serious blonde moments,
but deep down inside, i`m just a
regular girl that`s looking for a real love`..

You do what you love, and fuck the rest

And we sat there at school laughing and joking and it was that moment when I realized, this is it; this is the last time we'll ever be together sitting in our group of friendship but I knew even though we wouldn't be together in person we'd always be together at heart. That's what real friendship is.

I remember one time we were walking. I don't remember where, and I don't remember when. I don't even remember the season. I just know that was the first time I felt like I belonged someplace.

it was cold. your hands were shaking,
& i stepped in front of you just to
wrap my arms around you as i said,
"let's pretend winter isn`t here." as you
buried your head into my shoulder, you said,
"let`s pretend the snow isn`t the only thing falling fast."

The ABC's of Friendship
Accepts you as you are
Believes in "you"
Calls you just to say "HI"
Doesn't give up on you
Envisions the whole of you (even the unfinished parts)
Forgives your mistakes
Gives unconditionally
Helps you
Invites you over
Just because
Keeps you close at heart
Loves you for who you are
Makes a difference in your life
Never Judges
Offers support
Picks you up
Quiets your fears
Raises your spirits
Says nice things about you
Tells you the truth when you need to hear it
Understands you
Values you
Walks beside you
Xxoxoxoxxxoooxxoxo
Yells when you won't listen and
Zaps you back to reality

So many people have come into my life,
and I know they’ll all be going.
But I’m going to be losing some of the best friends I could ever have.
I don’t know how I’ll get through that.

it`s not about how many days there are until
you open your presents or how many presents
you have. it`s about christmas. the family you
can`t stand the other 364 days of the year &
the time you share with them. the happiness
& love that fill up the room. it`s about you
watching everybody`s faces light up. it`s about
setting the gifts under the tree, all the wrapping
you had to do prior to & the way all the kids
go to bed believing. it`s about seeing the gift tag
with your name on it & realizing as eager you
were to open it before, all you really want is to
be there with your family. all you want is to
watch them smile. it`s a gift in itself.

I remember one time we were walking. I don't remember where, and I don't remember when. I don't even remember the season. I just know that was the first time I felt like I belonged someplace

Life's funny sometimes. It can push pretty hard,
like when you fall in love with someone but they
forget to love you back, like when
your best friend & your boyfriend leave you alone, like when
you pull the trigger or light the flame, & you can't
take it back. Like I said, in sports, they call this stepping up.
In life, I call it pushing back.
--one tree hill

Don't feel stupid for missing him, even if
he treated you like shit. You still had happy memories,
and you're always gonna miss them. Don't try to replace
him, cause you won't. Just get through each day, and
eventually it will get better. I promise. Eventually
someone will come into your life, and whether or
not you realize it, they are going to be something
special to you. so don't throw yourself at
every guy you see, trying to replace him, or
at least dull the memories, cause you're only
gonna make yourself see how hard he is to replace.
Someone better will eventually come along.

I know you. You don't want to move but I can't always be the one that takes a step. Any more steps and I'm walking away. -greys anatomy

it's like half of me wants to be with him
&& the other half wants to get over him
i guess i'll always have that some -
thing for him.</3

What defines a best friend? What are the requirements to be a “good” best friend? How many hours a week does it entail? Stupid questions that have no answers. A best friend is not defined by how many times they talk on the phone, or how many hours they hang out together. It is not defined by how many sleepovers they gossip at, or how many inside jokes they have. There are no requirements or laws that state that a “good” best friend must hang out with them every weekend, or tell each other every little detail. A best friend is a matter of opinion. It is the person who has been there for you through everything, not just through the fun things, or the little things. It is the person that you call when you are at your absolute worst, it is the person who saves you when you didn’t even notice that you needed saving, mostly it is the person who accepts you for who you are, and the person that you are becoming

someday when we've been together for a very long time, we'll turn out the lights & slow dance on the porch. you'll finish my sentences & i'll borrow your glasses. we'll wonder where the time went & at night we'll roll to the middle of our old bed into one another's arms where we'll kiss & hold each other & dream the secrest that only old lovers know.

People were destined for one another.
That`s the romantic idea that young girls have,
& I guess part of me still believes it.
+ The Rescue by Nicholas Sparks [ book

I remember most of seventeen, I remember the day we met.
his smile, his touch. you can be anywhere when your life begins,
when the future opens up in front of you,
& you may not even realize it at first. but it`s already happening.
-» Crazy/Beautiful

cory: it's an interesting feeling, you know?
shawn: what, knowing it's over
cory: no, being the only guy in the world who knows it's not

There are some things from our high school experiences that we`ll carry with us for the rest of our lives & some memories that we choose to forget. But when we look back at those experiences, we`ll see our friends, the ones who got us through everything, & we`ll realize how lucky we are to have them

Best friends are the ones who just know
when to call. Who have really been there
all those years. Who truly care, who don't
talk behind your back and let you know
when you're being talked about.
Who love you unconditionally,
because they know where you've come from
and they'll be with you wherever your going.

She's banged up. Mentally and emotionally,
literally and metaphorically.
But everyday she walks outside with
a smile on her face because that's who she is.

"i know that life is greater than death
but love is more than either." -tristan&isolde

god, that was strange to see you again.
introduced by a friend of a friend.
smiled &said, "yes i think we've met before."
& in that instant it started to pour.

Love to the tips of your fingers,
and when you find that love,
wherever you find it,
whoever you choose,
don't run away from it.
But you don't have to chase after it either.
You just be patient,
& it'll come to you.
-Dawson's Creek

shut the hell up.
you are worth it. you're worth every
guy in that god damn school. but you don't
see that. i'm here trying to tell you that you
are, but of course, you won't listen.

Seasons are changing
and waves are crashing
and the stars are falling all for us.
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one.

friendship is the glue that keeps our lives together,
especially when it feels as if everything is falling apart

You can always tell when two people are best friends
cause they`re always having way more fun than
it makes sense for them to be having.

And I say baby, yes I feel stupid to call you, but I'm lonely
And I don't think you meant it when you said you couldn't love me
And I thought maybe if I kissed the way you do, you'd feel it too
He said I'm sorry

my girls are crazy. they're weird, random,
& embarassing. every moment spent with
them is a moment i can never forget. and
sometimes i never want to remember. but
i love them with all my heart. life wouldnt
be the same without them. i mean, my life
would actually be normal. how boring is that!?

Just once in my life I want someone else to kiss first. I want someone else to lie awake and wonder what the right words are, if they'll be rejected, if they're ruining a great friendship. I want him to want me so much that he can't help himself, that he's willing to risk everything for a chance to be with me.

he has the most adorable eyes you could ever fall for
and the cutest smile that takes your breath away.
he has the ability to make you laugh every time he speaks
and whenever you look into his eyes, it's so hard to turn away.

we have four years to be irresponsible.
so relax; work is for people with jobs.
you'll never remember class time, but
you`ll remember the times that you
hung out with your friends. so stay out late.
& go out on a tuesday night when you have
a paper due on wednesday. spend money you
don`t have. & drink until the sunrise. the work
never ends, but highschool does

yeah, i'll admit it. I MISS YOU.
i miss us. but i can't think about
those things anymore. i gotta
move on. because THIS, this
is pointless

I'm just saying, you can't know who that person is.
The person who will become your ultimate confidante,
your soulmate, or your lover.
He may be that guy who had your eye on for years,
or he might be that guy standing next to you
in torn jeans buying some part for his motorcycle.
Whoever he is, he starts off as a stranger,
so he could be anyone.

best friends are people that watch you fall on your ass.
and then fall over on their ass because there laughing way too hard.

wanna make my day? hold my hand && have a real conversation with me. tell me something you trust only a select few with. look me in the eyes && smile. tell me what you really think of me, not what you wanna think. give me a chance. let yourself fall.

A best friend is someone who changes your life just by being part of
it. Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop. Someone who makes
you believe that there is really good in the world.
Someone who walks in
when the rest of the world walks out.
Someone that knows what you're
saying when you don't say a word. Someone you can look to in a a certain
way, and they know exactly what you're thinking. Someone you find
hardest to say goodbye to. Someone who knows ALL about you, and loves you
anyway. Someone who helps you through thick and thin. The first person
you go to when you need someone to talk to. Someone you will call to talk
about nothing, or the most important things in your life. They are the
shoulder you cry on, because you know that they really care about you.
Someone you would take a bullet for because it would be too painful to
watch them get hurt. Someone that will risk their friendship with you,
just to make sure you're safe and okay. Someone you can always be
around, and never get sick of.

It must have been the mistletoe,
the lazy fire...
the falling snow...
The magic in the frosty air
that made me fall in love with you...

Six billion people in the world. That's twelve billion hands to hold and
twelve billion eyes to gaze into. Twelve billion lips to whisper the only
words I ever need to hear. It's funny how I don't have to meet a single
one of those people to know that you are the one who was meant for me.

the biggest mistake you can make
is to drift away from someone
you once had the time of your life with.

i wanna be that girl hes s c a r e d to lose
the one he [ can't ] walk away from
knowing shes mad at him
the one who he cant fall asleep
without her voice being the last one he hears
the one he wouldnt know
w h a t   t o   d o   w i t h o u t .

Almost everyone you know,
 Without exception,
Has their heart all wrapped around someone who'll never love them back

its the little things..
like when you smile at me. <3

People always ask, do you still like him?
& honestly, I don’t really know, but there’s
just something about him, I can’t let go

Remember that the only things we need sometimes are chilly nights
And warmer days,
Because there's nothing like being held in the arms of a boy you're crazy about.

i'm over you.
i still shake when you walk by
and i still save all of our online conversations

and snow days :] :]

QUOTESS;;

Life's funny sometimes. It can push pretty hard,
like when you fall in love with someone but they
forget to love you back, like when
your best friend & your boyfriend leave you alone, like when
you pull the trigger or light the flame, & you can't
take it back. Like I said, in sports, they call this stepping up.
In life, I call it pushing back.
--one tree hill

Don't feel stupid for missing him, even if
he treated you like shit. You still had happy memories,
and you're always gonna miss them. Don't try to replace
him, cause you won't. Just get through each day, and
eventually it will get better. I promise. Eventually
someone will come into your life, and whether or
not you realize it, they are going to be something
special to you. so don't throw yourself at
every guy you see, trying to replace him, or
at least dull the memories, cause you're only
gonna make yourself see how hard he is to replace.
Someone better will eventually come along.

What defines a best friend? What are the requirements to be a good best friend? How many hours a week does it entail? Stupid questions that have no answers. A best friend is not defined by how many times they talk on the phone, or how many hours they hang out together. It is not defined by how many sleepovers they gossip at, or how many inside jokes they have. There are no requirements or laws that state that a “good” best friend must hang out with them every weekend, or tell each other every little detail. A best friend is a matter of opinion. It is the person who has been there for you through everything, not just through the fun things, or the little things. It is the person that you call when you are at your absolute worst, it is the person who saves you when you didn’t even notice that you needed saving, mostly it is the person who accepts you for who you are, and the person that you are becoming

someday when we've been together for a very long time, we'll turn out the lights & slow dance on the porch. you'll finish my sentences & i'll borrow your glasses. we'll wonder where the time went & at night we'll roll to the middle of our old bed into one another's arms where we'll kiss & hold each other & dream the secrest that only old lovers know.

I remember most of seventeen, I remember the day we met.
his smile, his touch. you can be anywhere when your life begins,
when the future opens up in front of you,
& you may not even realize it at first. but it`s already happening.
-» Crazy/Beautiful

There are some things from our high school experiences that we`ll carry with us for the rest of our lives & some memories that we choose to forget. But when we look back at those experiences, we`ll see our friends, the ones who got us through everything, & we`ll realize how lucky we are to have them

Best friends are the ones who just know
when to call. Who have really been there
all those years. Who truly care, who don't
talk behind your back and let you know
when you're being talked about.
Who love you unconditionally,
because they know where you've come from
and they'll be with you wherever your going.

She's banged up. Mentally and emotionally,
literally and metaphorically.
But everyday she walks outside with
a smile on her face because that's who she is.

"i know that life is greater than death
but love is more than either." -tristan&isolde

god, that was strange to see you again.
introduced by a friend of a friend.
smiled &said, "yes i think we've met before."
& in that instant it started to pour.

Love to the tips of your fingers,
and when you find that love,
wherever you find it,
whoever you choose,
don't run away from it.
But you don't have to chase after it either.
You just be patient,
& it'll come to you.
-Dawson's Creek

shut the hell up.
you are worth it. you're worth every
guy in that god damn school. but you don't
see that. i'm here trying to tell you that you
are, but of course, you won't listen.

Seasons are changing
and waves are crashing
and the stars are falling all for us.
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one.

friendship is the glue that keeps our lives together,
especially when it feels as if everything is falling apart

You can always tell when two people are best friends
cause they`re always having way more fun than
it makes sense for them to be having.

my girls are crazy. they're weird, random,
& embarassing. every moment spent with
them is a moment i can never forget. and
sometimes i never want to remember. but
i love them with all my heart. life wouldnt
be the same without them. i mean, my life
would actually be normal. how boring is that!?

we have four years to be irresponsible.
so relax; work is for people with jobs.
you'll never remember class time, but
you`ll remember the times that you
hung out with your friends. so stay out late.
& go out on a tuesday night when you have
a paper due on wednesday. spend money you
don`t have. & drink until the sunrise. the work
never ends, but highschool does

I'm just saying, you can't know who that person is.
The person who will become your ultimate confidante,
your soulmate, or your lover.
He may be that guy who had your eye on for years,
or he might be that guy standing next to you
in torn jeans buying some part for his motorcycle.
Whoever he is, he starts off as a stranger,
so he could be anyone.

A best friend is someone who changes your life just by being part of
it. Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop. Someone who makes
you believe that there is really good in the world.
Someone who walks in
when the rest of the world walks out.
Someone that knows what you're
saying when you don't say a word. Someone you can look to in a a certain
way, and they know exactly what you're thinking. Someone you find
hardest to say goodbye to. Someone who knows ALL about you, and loves you
anyway. Someone who helps you through thick and thin. The first person
you go to when you need someone to talk to. Someone you will call to talk
about nothing, or the most important things in your life. They are the
shoulder you cry on, because you know that they really care about you.
Someone you would take a bullet for because it would be too painful to
watch them get hurt. Someone that will risk their friendship with you,
just to make sure you're safe and okay. Someone you can always be
around, and never get sick of.

It must have been the mistletoe,
the lazy fire...
the falling snow...
The magic in the frosty air
that made me fall in love with you...

Lately I've been thinking about the ups & downs we've been through together and how we almost lost our ground.  We held on long enough to see all the good out weigh the bad.  And I'm thankful, so grateful for everything we have.  But for a moment I thought I lost everything.  For a moment I forgot about our memories.  Then I woke up and I realized how much you mean to me.  For a moment I thought I lost you and me

ten boys later,
& i still have a thing for you.

As doctors, as friends, as human beings, we all try to do the best we can. But the world is full of unexpected twists & turns. & just when you`ve gotten the lay of the land, the ground underneath you shifts. & knocks you off your feet. If you`re lucky, you`ll end up with nothing more than a flesh wound, something a bandaid will cover. But, some wounds are deeper than they first appear, & require more than just a quick fix. With some wounds, you have to rip of the bandaid, let them breathe & give them time to heal.
-» Grey`s Anatomy

♥conversation between ex's
[regular is talking, italics is thinking]
Girl:; you're new girlfriend is pretty. i bet she stole your heart.
Boy:; yeah..she is. but you're still the most beautiful girl i know.
Girl:; i hear she's funny and amazing. all the stuff i wasn't.
Boy:; she sure is. but she's nothing compared to you.
Girl:; i bet you know everything about her by now. like how you knew just about everything about me.
Boy:; only the stuff that counts. i can't even remember the stuff she tells me when i think of you.
Girl:; well..i hope you guys last. cause we never did.
Boy:; i hope we do too. whatever happend to me and you?
Girl:; well i gotta go. before i start to cry.
Boy:; yeah me too. i hope you don't cry.
Girl:; bye. i still love you.
Boy:; later. i never stopped..

fate determines who walks into your life
you decide who you will let walk out, who
you let stay, and who you refuse to go

I live in a world full of people pretending to be something they're not,
but when I talk to you I am that who I want to be
+A Cinderella Story

Austin: Sam! Okay, I know you think I'm just some...
Sam: Coward? Phony?
Austin: Okay, just listen.
Sam: No, you listen. You turned out to be exactly who I thought you were. I never pretended to be somebody else. It's been me all along. And it was me who was hurt in front of everybody. Look, I didn't come here to yell at you, okay? I know what it feels like to be afraid to show who you are. I was. But not anymore. And the thing is, I don't care what people think about me... because I believe in myself. And I know that things are gonna be okay. But even though I have no family, and no job, and no money for college... it's you that I feel sorry for.
David: Heads up! Yo, five minutes.
Austin: I'm coming!
Sam: I know that guy that sent those emails is somewhere inside of you, but, I can't wait for him... because waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought. Useless and disappointing.
[walks away]
Austin: SAM!
[punches locker]
++A cinderella Story

So theres this boy,
We fight alot,
He makes fun of me because i can only stay on a
subject for like 5 sec. & then im on to the next one
He listens to me when im sad
& handles me when im mad
tell him "i hate him"
& he responds with "i love you"
yeah hes not prince charming,
but to me he couldnt be more perfect<3

in the end, its still best to wait for the one we want rather than settle for what is available, it is still best to wait for the one you love rather then to settle for the one who is around, its still best to wait for the right person, cause life is too short to waste on the wrong one.

You are the boy,who I want to ride the Ferris wheel with
& then kiss when we stop at the top.

and that's when you realize
he's the boy you're crazy for.
the one who makes you laugh on the worst days.
he's not perfect, but neither are you.
sometimes he's dorky, but he's your dork.
he kisses you in the rain and dances with no music,
even though he knows it's cliche.
he made you realize it is possible to have permanent butterflies
every love song makes sense because of him,
because he loves you, and you love him.

I want someone to fall in love with
the way i laugh & with my smile.
i want someone to listen to the ramblings
of my inner child. Someone who touches
my face and brushes the hair from my eyes.
I want someone who loves me or atleast
holds me like they do. But I only want that..
if it's with you..<3

I'll add more every now and then.

Comments :]

It's almost Halloweeen, it's crazy how fast this year is going by already.

Sorry I haven't updated lately, school and work are taking over my life.

ENJOY!!

MEREDITH: Dr. Bailey, all my boyfriends are here!

^^HAHA. who doesn't love that show. that episode was funny with Grey

MEREDITH: "Now all my boys are here! You’re all so handsome, and such good kissers."
GEORGE: "Oh. God."
FINN: "Excuse me?"
GEORGE: "She’s on drugs."
MEREDITH: "He's an excellent kisser!"
FINN: "You two... dated?"
DEREK: "You didn't know?"
MEREDITH: "It wasn't a date so much as a... disastrously uncomfortable sexual experience."

Sometimes the hardest thing to let of
is something you never really had.
What could've happened, didn't -
that's just the way the cookies crumbled.
This is my good-bye to you.
I'll never forget the way you made me smile

i'm not perfect. i'll annoy you - i'll piss you off, say
stupid things then take them back. but put all that
aside, and realize that you'll never find a
girl who cares about you more than me

MIRANDA: "You know as well as I do it's not about what you look like, or your job, or how successful you are. It's about having people in your life that you love and who love you... that's all that matters."

it's weird because i still remember
that conversation we had
2 years, 5 months, 22 days, 1 hour, and 43 minutes ago...
i said "are you mad at me or something?"
and you said 
"no, i'm not mad at you. i'm in love with you

You are what you fight for.

We're the kind of friends
that'd kill each other for a
handful of Doritos,
chocolate chip cookies
or grapes and in the end
we don't say sorry, we say
"Haha, too bad sucka."

A friend would lend you an umbrella in the rain,
but a true friend would take yours and scream "RUN, BITCH, RUN!"

Because once upon a time, we were best friends.
And yes, there's been a lot of bad stuff in between,
but none of that matters right now, okay?
You need me, I'm there.
Anytime, any place, anywhere

It was odd.. his blue eyes met with my brown ones and we didnt look away. for a moment caught in this awkward staring glance like thing, and then he did the most perfect thing, when he looked away, he smiled

You think you know who your true friends are? wait till high school & see who's there for you when your ex boyfriend spreads rumors about you. Think you'll never do drugs? Wait till it's right there in front of you & all your "friends" are doing it. Think your tough? Wait till you say the wrong thing to the wrong person-see who backs down first. Think you're smart? Wait till you have an English paper, science project, history test & a 10 minute monologue due tomorrow cause you were absent for 1 day. Think you're cool? wait till you're the only one who doesn't make the sports team, see how cool you are then. you think you're popular? Wait till your parents can't afford the new Hollister jeans everyone has. Think you'll never fall in love? Wait till a guy looks deep in your eyes & says he loves you. Think you'll never get your heart broken? wait till that same guy who said he loved you is holding another girl behind your back. Think you won't have sex? Wait till the guy you think you love says it'll make you closer. Think "nothing's going to happen to you"? Yea wait till you're sitting in a jail cell, wondering how you got caught. Think that you're always going to be your own individual? Well wait till one morning when you look in the mirror & you're just like everybody else

DEREK: You deserve to be with somebody who makes you happy. Somebody who doesn't complicate your life. Somebody who won't hurt you. He's the better guy. Finn's the better guy.
MEREDITH: Derek?
DEREK: I'm walking away.

Maybe some friendships aren't meant
to be saved.
Maybe we're meant to spend a certain
part of our lives with certain people
and then move on.

There's a point in your life when you know who stays forever
and who's just around for a while. People change, but so do you.
Sometimes for the best and sometimes for the worst.
Bad things happen, to everyone. You're not in it alone.
People lie, and some people just don't care how you feel.
Your heart beats, no matter how much pain you're in.
Everything will be okay, eventually.
There are always people in your life that just make your day,
no matter the miles. I know all about distance,
I've been dealing with it all my life.
So don't tell me it's easy - because it's not.
But it is worth it, I'd rather stay in touch with the people I love
than just drop it and forget about it.
You don't forget about the ones you love.
It doesn't work like that. Give it all you've got,
and live your life to the fullest. People would kill to be you,
have what you have, someone always has it worse off than you,
but that doesn't mean your pain doesn't count

Growing up never straight forward.
There are moments when everything is fine,
& other moments, when you're a teenager
& you realize that there are certain memories
that you'll never get back..
& certain people that are going to change
& the hardest part is realizing that
there's nothing you can do except watch them,
& realize that everything is going to change.

Mer: You are a great guy. You're a wonderful guy. And you may even be the better guy. But,
Finn: Hes the one.
Mer: And I wish he wasnt.
Finn: He's gonna hurt you again and when he does, I wont be here.

singing along in a car packed full of your close friends,
laughing & smiling having the best time of your life
with the windows down & the moon shining bright
now those are the days i live for

I want a boy who would hold my hand
in line at the mall and make all the girls jealous.
I want someone who would sing to me
at random moments.
Someone who is more goofy than romantic.
A boy who would throw stuffed animals at me
when I'm acting dumb.
Someone who would bet me kisses
that he could beat me at all the old Playstation
games and then let me win.
A guy who would make fun of me
just to hear my laugh.
He'd play with my hair all the time
and surprise me with 25 cent rings.
Someone who I could share lollipops
with and lay on a blanket with to count the stars.
We'd buy tons of disposable cameras
to take the silliest pictures of each other
and squirt water-guns at each other in the house.
But mostly, someone who would be my best friend
and he would never break my heart.
He would just always make me smile.

I can't be with someone who has doubts,
no matter how small they are,
I need someone who wants to be with me
as much as I want to be with them,
I don't want just part of your heart, I want all of it,
& you can't promise me that

ADDISON: Did you know about the slutty sex your slutty friend had with my super slutty husband?
IZZIE: You should have a muffin. They're really good and they help you.
ADDISON: I may be beyond help.
IZZIE: Yeah, me too. Don't let her drive Joe.
ADDISON: [eats a muffin] Mmm. Good!

^haha

Spring sweet rhythm dance in my head
Slip into my lover's hands
Kiss me won't you kiss me now
And sleep i would inside your mouth
Don't be us too shy
Knowing it's no big surprise
That i will wait for you
I will wait for no one but you
Oh please lover lay down
Spend this time with me
Together share this smile
Lover lay down
Spend this time with me
Walk with me, walk with you
Hold my hands your hands
So much we have dreamed
And you were so much younger
Hard to explain that we are stronger
A million reasons life to deny
Let's toss them away
See you and me we
Lay down look see
She and he
By my lover's side
Together share this smile
Lover lay down
Oh please oh please
Please lover lay down
Oh please lover lay down
And you weep lover lay down
Cause it's over lover lay down
Say love, say love, say love, say love, say love
Could i love you
Could you love me
Darling it's all the same
'til we dance away
Chasing me all around
Leading me all around
Leading me all around in circles

++Lover Lay Down-Dave Matthews Band. [the ex boyfriend sang that to me after asking me to Prom last year..... :( he was quite the charmer]

When it's real,
when it's right..
Don't let anything
stand in your way.
-» Crazy/Beautiful

DENNY: Dad, mom. It's me. I'm calling from Seattle Grace Hospital where the beautiful, talented and incredibly stubborn Dr. Isobel Stevens has, she given me a brand new heart and promised to marry me. I know we've had our differences and I'm sorry we've been out of touch. Believe it or not, I was trying to make everything better. I know you're angry but I hope you'll forgive me. It turns out, sometimes you have to do the wrong thing. Sometimes you have to make a big mistake to figure out how to make things right. Mistakes are painful. But they're the only way to find out who you really are. I know who I am now. And I know what I want. I've got the love of my life, a new heart and I want you guys to get on the next plane out here and meet my girl. Everything's going to be different now, I promise. From here on out, Nothing's every going to be the same. I love you, bye.
^saddest thing EVER. i almost cried in that episode lol

i just need a boy to come up to me and give me a hug
and say "i'm sorry that almost my entire gender sucks."-HAHA.

when times are hard,
when things go bad
regardless, i am here
when your whole world is crumbling
i promise to stay near
we bring a balance into each other's lives

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

but then I saw you for the first time in a while
and awkward thoughts brought awkward smile

We wonder why black & white photos capture our soul.
I think it's cause without color, we aren't drawn to the
makeup, & the color of our eyes, or our hair, or how tan our
skin is. Black & white captures the innocence on ones face &
the hurt they've gone through to feel vulnerability. The glow we
see comes from the inside. Brightening our eyes, our skin, & our smile.
It grabs the truth that liberates us.

Some things you don't want to hear, some things are said cause you can't stay silent, some things are more than what you say they are what you do, some things you keep to yourself, & not too often but every now & then some things simply speak for themselves.
-» Grey's Anatomy

"i always thought that there was this one perfect person for everybody in the world, you know, and when you found that person the rest of the world kind of magically faded away, and, you know, the two of you would just be inside this kind of protective bubble, but there is no bubble, I mean if there is you have to make it, I just think life is more than a series of moments, you know, we can make choices, and we can choose to protect the people we love, and that's what makes us who we are and those are the real memories"

She is the type of girl that wishes on stars,
Even though she knows nothing will happen.
She still wants some hope, that her life will be better.
She wishes to be prettier, a stronger person.
But most of all, with tears running down her face,
She wishes for him.

Here's the thing about having a relationship:
you can never look for it.
It's just like when you lose your keys,
if you look for them, you'll never find them.
You just have to wait for them to pop up
under the couch or something.
So I'm playing it as patient as I can.
I'm not going to rush into having a relationship
just because I'm lonely sometimes.
I'm waiting for the right person.

Our relationship? Yeah. It's perfect in an aspect, but everything looks perfect from far away. We fight, we disagree, we get mad at each other..but we're both mature enough to realize that it was stupid & that..no matter what happnes? We'll always be in love. People always say that we're perfect together, & so in love..& it's true. But what they don't realize is that it took two years to get it like that. It took blood, sweat, & tears. It took me walking away for awhile, for him to realize that I was the only girl in the world that was going to put up with his stupid mind games & childish bull shit. I had to walk away from him to realize I was the only one in the world that knew how he was, & be independant at the same time. It's hard to maintain what we have.

because for her, being without him
was the same as forgetting how to laugh.
it was that unimaginable

we never have a chance to be with each other
& i miss you alot

The difference between physical attraction,
and love, is the ability to see the same person,
at their best, and at their worst, and still
desire them without one false step

when two people are meant for each other
no time is too long
no distance is too far
and nobody can tear them apart

i just broke up with someone i spent my entire life with
i don't have a heart anymore.  i have lost my life
- Boy Meets World

a  true  friend  is  someone who
understands your past, believes
in your future, & accepts you today
JUST the way [ y o u ] are         <3

There's simply one reason why music matters;
it'll never let you down

"Love is when you go out to eat
     and give somebody
most of your French fries
     without making them give
you any of theirs."

I live for those moments
when you least expect the
most wonderful thing in the
world to actually happen

girl: ok, I have a question for you
boy: alright ask me..
[short pause]
girl: what do you see when you look in my eyes?
boy: you honestly wanna know.. ?
girl: yeah..
boy: my future

we've been through drama, crying,
heartbreaks and despair.
we went through fights and bad times,
but you know what? i dont really care.
i'm with you forever and i love you a lot,
cuz you're my best friend and the
[ best thing i've got ] --SMT.<3

why am i falling for you again ?
what is it about you ?
i mean we hardly talk anymore.

whenever you feel lonely
just look at the s p a c e s
between your fingers
& remember, that's where m y
fingers wilL - a L w a y s - fit
[ . p . e . r . f . e . c . t . L . y . ]

you're only a memory now.
a memory of what i wanted.
of what i got.
of what i gave away.
& of what i'd do anything to get back

I don't know what tomorrow brings
or even what I'm gonna eat for breakfast
I couldn't tell you if I'll find my soul-mate
or even what outfit I'm gonna wear TOMORROW
I still can't figure out what my destiny is
or even if i'll feel like doing my homework TONIGHT
but I do know this
I've got my music in my car
a closet full of clothes
and the best friends a girl could HAVE
and baby, that's all i really nee

[i love that quote]

remember in kindergarten,
where it would be your first day
and you would meet someone new and ten minutes later
you would be playing like you were best friends?
because back then, you didn't have to pretend
to be anyone but yourself.

My best friends you always will be. Though everything we’ve gone through and everything that’s yet to be. You’ve helped me with so much and without you what would I be? A lonely sad person all alone in the world with no one to help guide me. I love you guys so much in that special sister way. And that is how it will ALWAYS stay. We’ll be together through thick and thin and even when were far away we will be together cause that’s how close we will stay. So even though this isn’t much its my special way of saying how much I care about you and love you in that special sister way. [to my girls: SMT. SJS. JDM. LEC. ELG. KNR <3.]

She knew she had to be cautious, when speaking
to him again, for she had her heart on the line. &
with simply one wrong move, & she could surely
find herself falling for that boy all over again.

people said i've changed so much. welll heres the honest truth, i grew up. i stopped letting people push me around and i learned that you can't always be happy. i've accepted reality

I'lll add more every now and then

LOVE YOU ALL!

the song is "Missing Me"-RJ Helton :]